Tina's

Tina's http://tinabudde.multiply.com/ Wed, 23 Jul 2008 00:59:06 -0000 Thu, 3 Jul 2008 02:07:01 -0000 Tina's http://images.tinabudde.multiply.com/logo http://tinabudde.multiply.com 100 100 bad mood Well the last few weeks have been hell on wheels here.  First dad had a stroke in April followed by major heart attack in May.  It's hard to believe this strong man has been reduced to a housebound, chair bound lump.  He has congestive heart failure, arrythmia's, and 1st degree blocked coronary artery which cannot be opened up with a stent because the angiogram dye hit the kidneys and he went into a failure situation.  It's been a mess and it gets worse day by day.  The situation at ECMC was out of this world and I will be sending them a letter kicking ass as soon as I know dad won't need their facility for anymore care.  Right now I feel trapped and angry at the world. My brother is useless.  Here I am 44 years old living and caring for 2 invalids.  Mom is almost blind, diabetic, and has angina, dad now has the heart issues and stroke damage in the left leg both have swollen legs like mine BUT worse!  And here I am with no life whatsoever,... http://tinabudde.multiply.com/journal/item/35/bad_mood Thu, 3 Jul 2008 02:07:01 -0000 Maybe spring is here? Whew it's been a long time since I have been on here.  I was doing so good but then it hit the fan.  Mom had surgery, it didn't come out right, she went back 2 more times and her sight cannot be restored.  Dad's growing deafer by the day and both are forgetting more and more and are just outright nasty. It's so hard to deal with them.  I know when something happens, it will hit me like a ton of bricks and I should appreciate the time I have with them but boy, oh boy, it's hard when they treat you like dirt or a nasty bug.  I doubt if they have ever cared about me at all.  Mom's never been the warm fuzzy type, but I don't have any good memories of her at all.  Dad was always busy working and the army stuff always came first.  My brother is on marriage 3, that's pretty sad.  I see how he treated and treats his children and they are messed up for it.  He shouldn't have anymore.  He verbally abuses them just our mother did to us. ... http://tinabudde.multiply.com/journal/item/34/Maybe_spring_is_here Mon, 31 Mar 2008 01:47:21 -0000 Monday, yay. Finally it's sleep in day, Mondays and Fridays are the best!  Mom's surgery came out ok, it was a day of disaster though all day.  It was horrible snow, wind, white outs, we got lost.  Mom was wanting almost crying to go home and forget it but we found the place after up and down the street 4 times trying to figure out where it was.  One side numbers were 100-140, the other side 160-200 so our number was 150, go figure and nobody told us the actual number was on a different street!  How stupid.  They did xrays, eye drops, dyes, ect and she has the treatable macular degeneration luckily and they did laser and some shot thing.  She won't get better but it won't progress either.  The other eye is fine no problems as of yet.  She had a reaction to the dye stuff later at home (of course).  It was such a long day and thankfully it's over is all I can say and I can't say that enough lol.  She goes back 2/12 for a http://tinabudde.multiply.com/journal/item/33/Monday_yay. Mon, 28 Jan 2008 06:28:07 -0000 Monday, yay. http://tinabudde.multiply.com/journal/item/32/Monday_yay. Mon, 28 Jan 2008 06:23:52 -0000 Windyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy <IMG src="http://images.multiply.com/common/smiles/cup.png">It was almost 70 yesterday then big winds about 60mph, knocked power out a few times on and off but now it's calm and in the 40's.  I wish the weather would make up it's mind, the unstable barometer is a pain in the butt, old injuries hurt.  My foots killing me, broke it 3 years ago Feb and man it's been aching like there is no tomorrow!  At least sinus's are ok!   I got my parents anniversary present for Jan 18th, well part of it anyhow, got them a comforter for their bed and will buy a dinner of some sort.   http://tinabudde.multiply.com/journal/item/31/Windyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy Thu, 10 Jan 2008 03:12:04 -0000 warmer today <IMG src="http://images.multiply.com/common/smiles/omg.png">Well we are starting the big warm up to the 50's, tomorrow is gonna be 40's, then Monday 50's then Tuesday 60's.  Wow that's a record for January up here in western NY.  I can only imagine all the snow melting into muc then thunderstorms and heavy rains for Tuesday night, what a mess that will be.  We'll have to dig out boots just for water instead of snow. I got alot done today, got all my shopping done for groceries, got my baskets for prizes for Lymphland ready just need some of that shrink wrap to put over them.  I have so many nice things, it should be really fun.  I wish more people would become involved though. Tomorrow is cleaning a little here and then web work.  I have alot to do on the web tomm. I gotta get up early tomorrow as I'm taking the neighbor lady to church, running a few last errands, picking her up then I'm home for the day. http://tinabudde.multiply.com/journal/item/30/warmer_today Sun, 6 Jan 2008 04:46:40 -0000 Warm up is coming <IMG src="http://images.multiply.com/common/smiles/rose.png">Well here we are January 3rd, warm up to the 50's is coming this next week.  Amazing how it goes up and down.  It has been a long few months. I'm tired, now I'm ready for spring though I will probably have the awful allergies.  I'm sick of the darkness at 5pm or before every day, seems worse this year for some reason. I got a massage today so I feel a little better than usual.  I spent a good few hours looking at themes for butterflies and chose this one. I really want a pastel butterfly theme but this will do for now until I look again or get bored.  I'm going to try my hand at making a theme this weekend that should be learning experience lol.  It takes me forever to learn new things but once I learn them I'm good forever. I went shopping yesterday for holiday bargains and found a few good ones for presents for birthdays coming in the spring and a few things for Christmas next year.  I got myself a nail polish set with so many bottles, then it had a... http://tinabudde.multiply.com/journal/item/29/Warm_up_is_coming Fri, 4 Jan 2008 03:50:04 -0000 Happy Birthday brother Joe my brother is 50 today, the big 5-0.  I'll call him tonight.  I sent him a package for his birthday of some lottery tickets and a really cool Christmas village house that said EAT AT JOE'S.  My brother loves food and it shows lol, he's prob close to 400 pounds, and NO lymphedema, pure fat.   http://tinabudde.multiply.com/journal/item/28/Happy_Birthday_brother Fri, 28 Dec 2007 18:31:09 -0000 December 27th, busy day Got errands ran, a few things of moms to dad I had to return.  I am glad they are done. I bought myself a pair of green velour pants today at the Dollar store they were $10.00 I got a gift card for there from Ann and I still have a $5.00 subway card to use.  It was a nothing eventful day other than that, grey and ugly outside. I hate the grey of winter, it's depressing. We may move mom's surgery later in Jan, she had new insurance Jan 1 and we have not gotton cards for it yet! That is such http://tinabudde.multiply.com/journal/item/27/December_27th_busy_day Fri, 28 Dec 2007 04:28:49 -0000 soft chocolate chip cookies Easy to make and only 74 calories per http://tinabudde.multiply.com/recipes/item/1/soft_chocolate_chip_cookies Wed, 26 Dec 2007 07:47:06 -0000 Sombra I have one large jar and 1 small jar. It's very good pain relief http://tinabudde.multiply.com/market/item/3/Sombra Wed, 26 Dec 2007 07:33:53 -0000 Jergens Jergens Naturals with vitamin E and chamomile, unscented hypoallergenic, skin bar, 2 bar package. They don't make this anymore, I have 4 packages, charge $1.00 shipping per http://tinabudde.multiply.com/market/item/2/Jergens Wed, 26 Dec 2007 07:33:01 -0000 Looking for a DVD or VHS Wanted: "A Saintly Switch", "Beverly Hills Gilligan's http://tinabudde.multiply.com/market/item/1/Looking_for_a_DVD_or_VHS Wed, 26 Dec 2007 07:30:48 -0000 Boxing Day is here Happy Boxing Day Canada! I'm glad Christmas is over.  It was a hard day.  It's so hard watching mom and dad, they are like children tantrums and all, mom cried today over her scissors and was upset, she's misplacing so many things makes me wonder if she has alzheimers too like dad.  OMG I hope it's not genetic, my brothers older so I will see it happen to him first lol if it's to be.  Do people really have happy, exciting Christmases?  What is so lacking in our family that we don't, is it because I'm alone except for my parents and deadbeat brother I never see?  I think we got rooked too, I think he just wanted extra money so he pleaded a sob story.  I honestly don't know anymore.  I have really tried to be happy this Christmas, to make it different at least for me, it never changes no matter how hard I try I am not happy, it's sad and lonely. I know this could be the last year with mom and dad, maybe it's my last year, I don't know. I'm getting... http://tinabudde.multiply.com/journal/item/26/Boxing_Day_is_here Wed, 26 Dec 2007 07:23:22 -0000 Christmas Eve <IMG src="http://images.multiply.com/common/smiles/present.png">Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night lol.  <IMG src="http://images.multiply.com/common/smiles/present.png"> We aren't doing too much today, it's cold, windy and snowy but not as bad as predicted.  My chiro cancelled today and made my appt 9am tomm, he's Jewish so he doesn't honor holidays, that's fine with me cause it will be sunny tomm!  A nice little escape from the traffic there probably is on the road today.  I'm getting a massage tomorrow so I'll feel really good which is good because the day to endure with the parents will be a long one.  Mom will complain of anything wrong and dad won't hear it but I will, and dad will be bumbling around bored complaining of helping to cook the ham and dinner.  Then in the afternoon after we get the morning situated after my chiro and cooking and massage, we'll open presents and talk to my brother. I hope he was able to get someplace today to shop for his wife and the kids.  We got the money deposited.  I got my presents already from everyone so nothing to o... http://tinabudde.multiply.com/journal/item/25/Christmas_Eve Mon, 24 Dec 2007 17:06:43 -0000 lost money <IMG src="http://images.multiply.com/common/smiles/sad.png">when it snows it thunders, that's the weather we are getting tomorrow and with it huge winds again.  I have to go out Monday and run errands hoping the weather will be ok to do that.  My brother called, why am I a sucker?  He lost his wallet and whole paycheck and bonus and has nothing to use to shop for xmas and no food and no money for bills.  Dad and I chipped in and have some I will put in the bank Monday power pending so hope for the best.  What a crappy thing to happen right before the holiday.  I feel bad for http://tinabudde.multiply.com/journal/item/24/lost_money Sun, 23 Dec 2007 01:15:39 -0000 Survived another day..... <IMG src="http://images.multiply.com/common/smiles/thumbs_down.png">what a day, my backs aching, sore throat, and I have too much to do and don't feel like it. Today went shopping for mom to get dads presents and dad to get mom's.  Now I have to wrap them all and help do the tree.  I can't tell if I am getting sick or what, I'm sick of sore throats all the time.  Not sure if it's allergy or a cold or what.  My necks knotted and back out too from lifting groceries.  I just got it adjusted earlier this week!  Now I'll have to go tomm or Monday depends when they will be in or I'll be in agony by Christmas.  Mom's eye surgery is going to be Jan 3.  I have to be so careful not to get them sick.  It's sucky having a deaf father with alzheimers and a mother who is almost blind and diabetic who has mood swings.  they are honestly like adult children.  It's hard and sad.  Last night it was a 3am mother crying jag about losing her tweezers, not that she can see to use them but she thought they fell in ... http://tinabudde.multiply.com/journal/item/23/Survived_another_day..... Sat, 22 Dec 2007 03:31:27 -0000 Help us to remember this holiday season Help us to remember that the jerk who cut us off in traffic last night is a single mother who worked nine hours that day, that she is rushing home to cook dinner and help with homework, to do the laundry and spend a few precious moments with her children. Help us to remember that the pierced, tattooed, disinterested young man who takes forever at the checkout stand, is a worried 19-year-old college student, who is balancing his apprehension over final exams with his fear of not getting his student loans for next semester. Remind us that the scary looking bum, begging for money in the same spot every day (who really ought to get a job!) is a slave to addictions that we can only imagine in our worst nightmares. Help us to remember that the old couple walking annoyingly slow through the store aisles and blocking our shopping progress are savoring this moment, knowing that, based on the biopsy report she got back last week, this will be the last year that they go shopping together. Let us be... http://tinabudde.multiply.com/journal/item/22/Help_us_to_remember_this_holiday_season Wed, 19 Dec 2007 04:12:19 -0000 I read this somewhere and it is good! <IMG src="http://images.multiply.com/common/smiles/star.png"> Yet some have a greater ability to influence the beliefs of those around them than others. Those who have a very strong, coherent, optimistic energy field that is directed outwards generally appear dynamic and charismatic to others. They are thus more easily be able to convince those around them of what they believe or know to be true. They are often considered to be great communicators and influential people. This does not necessarily mean, however, that they know "The Truth." On the other hand, a more "shy" person or one who keeps their energy more contained or directed inward may have a knowingness about something just as strong as an outgoing charismatic person, but because of their shyness or inwardness, they are much less likely (or may not even want) to persuade others to believe as they do. There is no ultimate right or wrong here. Whether we choose to direct our energy more outward or inward, each of us is doing what we believe to be right in each moment. Yet the more transpa... http://tinabudde.multiply.com/journal/item/21/I_read_this_somewhere_and_it_is_good Wed, 19 Dec 2007 04:07:38 -0000 Not so hot day <IMG src="http://images.multiply.com/common/smiles/cat.png">I been thinking too much today about the kitty we lost earlier this month and just of all the sad things that have been happening in our lives.  It's very odd but I realized today that I don't have alot of happy memories, there are some with Kat and some at my grandmother's on holidays but other than that I don't have many other ones. It's always been a life of worry, stress, work and never relaxing and enjoying things.  I try to take it one day at a time but alot of times that doesn't work.  I try to stay optimistic, I've always been a very optimistic person with a 1/2 full glass rather than 1/2 empty one but lately with gloom and doom hitting so much, it's wearing me down to being a complaining, sad, person.  That's really sad to think I've become that.     http://tinabudde.multiply.com/journal/item/20/Not_so_hot_day Wed, 19 Dec 2007 04:02:53 -0000 winters here <IMG src="http://images.multiply.com/common/smiles/cup.png">Hi all, well we got 2 feet nearly of snow!  It was alot to shovel and with it yesterday came 40mph winds, sleet and cold 0 chill factors, it was horrible outside.  We had to run to the store down the street to get bread as our power was flickering and we didn't have anything much to eat if it went off, we live on microwave foods lol.  We have a generator but no gas!  Dad's gas can rusted out and leaked the gas out so we'd been out of luck.  Glad the storms over. Mom's eye surgery is being moved, she hurt her arm really bad, it just started hurting she claims but I think she fell or something.  Anyhow she can't move it w/o pain  so she may go to primary dr this week and do surgery next week on the 27th or in Jan on the 3rd, he's only in Thursdays to do surgeries. That's all for now.  That's enough drama lol.  I am done with Christmas, cards and packages are sent, decorations up, meal planned, shopping done except need to go get a few things f... http://tinabudde.multiply.com/journal/item/19/winters_here Tue, 18 Dec 2007 04:07:33 -0000 Christmas http://tinabudde.multiply.com/calendar/item/10001/Christmas Sun, 16 Dec 2007 23:46:30 -0000 Just Things I Like Misc pictures that I have used or were used in the past on Lymphland that I http://tinabudde.multiply.com/photos/album/18/Just_Things_I_Like Sun, 16 Dec 2007 23:36:16 -0000 Village eatery Best french fries and food in the whole http://tinabudde.multiply.com/reviews/item/1 Sun, 16 Dec 2007 20:08:14 -0000 Welcome to Lymphland Lymphland website is full of information about all aspects of lymphedema, we have a chatroom, charts, doctors articles, therapist links, ect and also a button on the first page to join our support http://tinabudde.multiply.com/links/item/1/Welcome_to_Lymphland Sun, 16 Dec 2007 19:34:44 -0000 Favorite Christmas Song Ben Green's http://tinabudde.multiply.com/music/item/1/Favorite_Christmas_Song Sun, 16 Dec 2007 18:44:14 -0000