Whew it's been a long time since I have been on here. I was doing so good but then it hit the fan. Mom had surgery, it didn't come out right, she went back 2 more times and her sight cannot be restored. Dad's growing deafer by the day and both are forgetting more and more and are just outright nasty.
It's so hard to deal with them. I know when something happens, it will hit me like a ton of bricks and I should appreciate the time I have with them but boy, oh boy, it's hard when they treat you like dirt or a nasty bug. I doubt if they have ever cared about me at all. Mom's never been the warm fuzzy type, but I don't have any good memories of her at all. Dad was always busy working and the army stuff always came first. My brother is on marriage 3, that's pretty sad. I see how he treated and treats his children and they are messed up for it. He shouldn't have anymore. He verbally abuses them just our mother did to us. You don't call kids stupid, village idiots, ect. I'm the only college graduate in my family that had a good job and then boom it was gone with this stupid lymphedema and cancer and health stuff that resulted from it.
It makes me so angry sometimes. It stole my life away. Then I wonder, what kind of mother would I have been? I can't see myself like my brother or mother but then, I don't know, maybe it's genetic. My cats know they can come to me if they hurt, feel sick, ect and Bigfoot always does. He has the worst gas on the planet. I have to literally burp him after meals, it's funny. Now the other end....not so funny but he's in pain and a tummy rub helps move it. Ever since he at that bad food. That's another sore spot with me. I contacted that lawyer several times with NO reply. If anything more happens to my cats they are gonna hear from me certified, personal sign mail.
I'm just fed up with alot of things tonight. Why is it the rich can blow money on stupid things then complain they are poor? They don't know what poor is.
I'm also fed up with a few lymphedema organizations. I'm a paid member. I joined for the purpose of benefitting my support group with resources and to get our name out there in order to help people. I see both of these groups sitting on there literal a**es taking donations and members and doing not a whole lot. I don't really care if they read this, at this point. I don't like being treated 2nd rate and "not good enough" in their standards. I'm not the one raking over people taking money to help people. I do it for free cause it's the right thing to do and you won't see me with a little donation button on my site, Lymphland.com or on the New York State Lymphedema Network either. The American Society of Lymphology has NOT given me a membership card, has NOT let me access anything on their site, yet they were SO EAGER to take my money! And what about the National Lymphedema Network? An area on their site is a financial assistance fund to help people with garments. Yeah, RIGHT! I don't believe that for a minute. It's take your money and say you are not eligible. Why if you are finanically broke, destitute would you be able to PAY them to help you by giving you money? Are people really that stupid?
Oh yeah, they sure took my money for membership, actually a member of my group wanted to pay for a membership for me. I agreed, wish I had not as I don't see any benefit to being a member. I filled out a support group form that somehow became missing, so filled out another one, never heard from them, so found an address, wrote them, was told to fill another one out. I filled it out on the site and copied and pasted it to the return email. They got it. Nothing happened! I again wrote, no reply. Being the content editor of ELymphNotes, I had to write to Saskia to see if she had any article to contribute to the magazine. Well, I asked about my group then, was told basically they would not sponsor "MY KIND OF GROUP". What the **** does that mean? I'm not good enough? My money sure was good enough to take now wasn't it? I just applied again with the New York State Lymphedema Network, wonder if they will diss me on that one too? I lost respect for them. I also was told by a knowledgeable source, they are going more for the medical professionals angle moreso than the patient. Well then be it known! Don't screw people and take their money to join then ignore them.
So that's my little take on 2 of the larger lymphedema organizations. Now I could go on and on about a few others that are do nothings, but I won't.
I am pretty disgusted with politicians as well. Elliot Spitzer has disgusted me to no end and Patterson his replacement is no better. Where are the values and respected image that goes with the title here? You don't cheat with hookers (Spitzer) and use the people's money on a job credit card to entertain "other" women (Pattersone). How disgusting. The presidential candidates are not much better. To be honest, if I were Hillary, I couldn't look anyone in the eye after the Monica Mess. It told me she did not respect herself very much to stay with him, and basically she stayed because she used him to get where she is now. NICE PEOPLE NOT! It's disgusting. For the record, I can't vote McCain either because I do not believe in war or more troops over there and he wants to do that. That war has ruined our country and what isn't ruined financially is devastated environmentally. The environmental damage is showing up faster and faster in Antarctica and Greenland. Ice is melting and breaking. Our weather is becoming wilder and wackier every month. We are abolishing bees which pollinate our food, floods/droughts wreck our food, and we are one day going to starve if the planet doesn't explode first! All the pollution, chemicals are killing our health as well. Cancer runs rampant. Technology reigns and is expensive. I can't afford digital HD tv, then what? We go to HD radio and have to pay for service on that one too??????? When are they going to charge for air? Heck we already buy water, why not air too? Then you can have the poor starved for oxygen! The Social Security fund is another hot topic with me. That money was there for a reason, to pay for our needs when we need it, retired, disabled, ect. It was stolen repeated for war and whatever else we dont' know about and now it's a "problem" cause they can't steal it anymore and we need it. So what do they want to do? Cut us off, make us suffer with not enough money and then if we get kicked off for some ridiculous review, we can't afford a lawyer to help us! Forget about doctor fees and copays we can't do those now either as we have to eat, and the food prices are going up daily. I can't hardly afford my pets! when they were born Friskies cat food in the can was 3 for $.99, then it went up $1.09 for three, then $1.29, now it's 75 cents a can!!!!!! Tripled in price. It's a shame the poor people who know what real life is, what a real budget is, can't run for office. You need a campaign and alot of money to run which is sooooooooo biased and bigoted, and our votes really don't count anyhow when we vote, the electoral college has the real say so what's the point?
What a wonderful_NOT world.
